Suddenly, I missed my dad so much...
Being the youngest and the only daughter in the family, my dad treated me like a little princess since I was young. You should see my collection on toys back at home. Barbie dolls, Lego, Playdoh of various colours, masak-masak sets, puzzles, numerous big soft toys and many many more. He really spoilt me to the max!
Still remember, everyday before he went to work, he would wake me up, gave me a kiss and 1 ringgit for the day (no wonder I'm so mata duitan now! -_-). Then I would stick my head at the window and waved goodbye to him until I couldn't see his car anymore. I became more and more stubborn each day, even my mom couldn't handle me anymore, then only my dad would pick up the cane. That was the scariest thing in my life back then. He didn't need to hit me with the cane at all, I was already in tears... But after that, he would ask me to sit on his lap and "tam" (pujuk) me back. Hee.
After I started going to school, things started to change bit by bit. He became very strict. He didn't allow me to watch TVB Series, didn't allow me to join the other kids to run around in the kampung, and lots more. But somehow, I managed to "steal" some time and break these rules. Whenever I catch a glimpse of his car, I would run for my life back to the house and acted like nothing had happen or switched off the tv and opened up a book. Lol.
He was super strict with my studies. If I got 99% in examination, he would ask me why I can't get 100%? How could I be so careless?? Everytime I would ended up dissapointed when I wish to hear few words of praises from him. Same things happened whenever I won any medals in any sport events. Until the time I got JPA scholarship, that was the first time I saw my dad so proud of me. Whenever he met his friends, he would tell them about me getting the scholarship and laugh so happily! I felt so shy but happy for seeing him so proud of me. Thinking back, my dad has been very supportive all these time. He was my full time driver, driving me wherever I want to go whenever I want! There was once I need to buy something for my school project which the deadline was the next day, he together with my mom drove me around the town to search for that single thing. Whenever I had any sports training, he would bring me there and make sure I reach the place safely.
As I grow older, our conversations become lesser and lesser. Sometimes, arguments were the only conversation we had. I would shout and cry like a little baby on the phone, not knowing how he felt on the other end of the phone. But nowadays, no more sitting-on-the-lap session after I cries. Things had changed. When I went back to Malaysia for holiday last semester, he came to pick me up at the airport (all the way from Penang to KLIA). I felt so happy and wanted to hug him. Who knows he rejected me... Huhu... Things had really changed but his egoism never change.
Dad, I just want to tell you that I love you and I miss you so much! I just wish that you can live happily and healthily. May God bless you always.